"Let the Feelings Go" by Annagrace
Not really new, but I love it!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Birthday!
This Sunday is my birthday! My 26th birthday. I am feeling older than old. Everyone I know who is older than me hates me for saying that, but it's true! My next monumental birthday will be THIRTY. THIRTY! I can't even deal with that. So, let's talk about happier things, like my birthday wishlist!
Robinson Cano jersey! My birthday present from my parents is tickets for the four of us to go see the Yankees play the Red Sox in September! The only jersey I have is Alex Rodriguez which I promptly stained with pizza grease at the Italian Food Center.
This trench coat from Anthropologie! I saw it there last weekend but B talked me out of trying it on because I have a khaki one almost identical. After further thought (and after finding this blog) I have decided that I have to have it. Khaki and plaid are entirely different.
This shirt from Anthropologie. My mom would call this very "hippy dippy" but I love it.
This collage of mirrors from Anthropologie. It reminds me so much of the first house I ever lived in. It was on the water but inside had a very Soho loft sort of feel. We had tables that were giant wooden spools for fabric/wire (like this), lots of hanging plants, lots of vases and clay pots, the kitchen table was round, made of chunky, solid wood, everything was very rustic but cool. Pretty much, my parents had an awesome design sense without even trying.
Robinson Cano jersey! My birthday present from my parents is tickets for the four of us to go see the Yankees play the Red Sox in September! The only jersey I have is Alex Rodriguez which I promptly stained with pizza grease at the Italian Food Center.
This trench coat from Anthropologie! I saw it there last weekend but B talked me out of trying it on because I have a khaki one almost identical. After further thought (and after finding this blog) I have decided that I have to have it. Khaki and plaid are entirely different.
This shirt from Anthropologie. My mom would call this very "hippy dippy" but I love it.
This collage of mirrors from Anthropologie. It reminds me so much of the first house I ever lived in. It was on the water but inside had a very Soho loft sort of feel. We had tables that were giant wooden spools for fabric/wire (like this), lots of hanging plants, lots of vases and clay pots, the kitchen table was round, made of chunky, solid wood, everything was very rustic but cool. Pretty much, my parents had an awesome design sense without even trying.Anyway, can you tell I'm obsessed with Anthropologie? I have a love/hate relationship with them, though. I love their stuff but hate their prices.
Update: I hadn't gotten a chance to publish this until today. Yesterday I went to Anthropologie and bought myself some early birthday presents. The coat, the shirt and the sheets (and this tank top in dark grey)! I know, I went a little crazy but I only turn 26 once! (I can justify anything). I wanted to order the mirror but not only is it nearly $700, I think my current apartment is too modern for it. Brian said it wouldn't work and I think he's right. I almost want to buy it and save it for when we get a house because yes, I love it THAT MUCH, but that's a little crazy seeing as we just signed the lease for another year. Right?
So birthday plans. My actual birthday is tomorrow. I'm so happy it's on a Sunday so I can keep up with the tradition of never working on my birthday. Seriously, in the 12 years I've been working, I've NEVER worked on my birthday. Tomorrow we're supposed to go on the boat with my parents and then go out to dinner at Morton's (if you've never been, GO! It's pricey as hell but the food is insane.), but with all this rain I don't know if it will be a boat day. Tonight our friend Asher is having a party (Asher Smasher!) so we will probably go there. I love my birthday weekend!
Update: I hadn't gotten a chance to publish this until today. Yesterday I went to Anthropologie and bought myself some early birthday presents. The coat, the shirt and the sheets (and this tank top in dark grey)! I know, I went a little crazy but I only turn 26 once! (I can justify anything). I wanted to order the mirror but not only is it nearly $700, I think my current apartment is too modern for it. Brian said it wouldn't work and I think he's right. I almost want to buy it and save it for when we get a house because yes, I love it THAT MUCH, but that's a little crazy seeing as we just signed the lease for another year. Right?
So birthday plans. My actual birthday is tomorrow. I'm so happy it's on a Sunday so I can keep up with the tradition of never working on my birthday. Seriously, in the 12 years I've been working, I've NEVER worked on my birthday. Tomorrow we're supposed to go on the boat with my parents and then go out to dinner at Morton's (if you've never been, GO! It's pricey as hell but the food is insane.), but with all this rain I don't know if it will be a boat day. Tonight our friend Asher is having a party (Asher Smasher!) so we will probably go there. I love my birthday weekend!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Life.
I was thinking today about who and where I am at this point in my life, compared to who and where I've been (both geographically and mentally). Often frazzled, stressed, feeling like I've bitten off more than I can chew. Often feeling like I'm PLAYING grown up rather than BEING grown up. I sometimes yearn for more free time. Empty, endless days and nights to fill with whatever I choose. Time to breathe, relax, de-stress, slow down. I can't say I don't enjoy the juggling act, though. I look forward to doing what I can with the time I have. Balancing work with play with personal work and growth. Planning every day and night, or simply not wanting to plan anything at all. I am content (not to be mistaken for complacent). I have a tremendous sense of pride. I am working, earning my keep, providing for those I love, always striving for more and to be better. I answer to no one but myself and that's taught me, if nothing else, to love what I do, do it to the best of my ability and have pride in myself and my work. I am usually able to pick myself up, and sometimes, when I'm not, I'm able to ask for help (but even when I do, I know I ultimately have to help myself). Realizing that I'm only me, not anyone else, and doing what I can with that.
These current feelings have replaced past feelings of inadaquecy, of trying to fill the shoes of someone much bigger, stronger and wiser than I. Worrying that I'll never get "there" (which is now actually "here"). Having every day be a struggle, taking everything I have to just press on and do it all over the next day. ...and worrying that it might not end up being worth it. Getting home at the end of the day, closing the door behind me, dropping my bags, breaking down hysterically due to the weight of it all. Wondering if this is really waht I want, if it makes me happy, if it will EVER make me happy.
"Sometimes I just need to go on autopilot and eventually I'll get to some place good and eventually I'll wake up." - Me, April, 2005
I haven't felt like that in so long and it feels great. I think I'm finally some place good.
These current feelings have replaced past feelings of inadaquecy, of trying to fill the shoes of someone much bigger, stronger and wiser than I. Worrying that I'll never get "there" (which is now actually "here"). Having every day be a struggle, taking everything I have to just press on and do it all over the next day. ...and worrying that it might not end up being worth it. Getting home at the end of the day, closing the door behind me, dropping my bags, breaking down hysterically due to the weight of it all. Wondering if this is really waht I want, if it makes me happy, if it will EVER make me happy.
"Sometimes I just need to go on autopilot and eventually I'll get to some place good and eventually I'll wake up." - Me, April, 2005
I haven't felt like that in so long and it feels great. I think I'm finally some place good.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
Today.
...is officially one of the worst days I've had in awhile. I was woken up today at 10:20am by Brian jumping up and screaming, "OH SHIT IT'S 10:20!" We have work at 11am so needless to say I got ready faster than I have in a very long time.
I also happen to be sick. Not full-fledged sick just yet but I'm getting there. My nose and throat are all itchy, burning, drippy at the same exact time. Yesterday I went out and bought a thermometer to keep at the store because I was convinced I had a ridiculously high, burning, scorching fever. I measured up at 97.9 degrees. Hypochondria much? OH speaking of hypochondria, I'm convinced I have Epstein Barr. My dad was diagnosed with it a week or two ago, and apparently it has a 1-2 month incubation period. He caught it somewhere around Miami and I've shared drinks with him since he's been home. While googling Epstein Barr I stumbled across HCMV which now I am also convinced I have. This is why I don't ever go to WebMD. Ever. Another thing I will never do again is watch Monsters Inside Me on Animal Planet. I made that mistake yesterday. I am now terrified of somehow getting brain-embedding parasites.
Back to today. I've seen a total of like 4 people at work today, which is good because I've gotten a lot done, bad because it means we're not making money. Brian and I also got into a fight (or two, or three) about work. I hate fighting, let alone fighting at work (and over work). It is NOT easy to work with the person you love/live with. We do ok with it but sometimes we can't help but stop just short of punching one another other in the face. We're good now but an hour ago? Wow. If anyone would have walked in they would have ran for cover. Gotta love the Italian/Irish tempers!
Hopefully tonight will be better. Yankees/Red Sox game tonight so we'll probably go somewhere to watch. Or I'll feel like death and hangout by myself on the couch. We'll see.
I also happen to be sick. Not full-fledged sick just yet but I'm getting there. My nose and throat are all itchy, burning, drippy at the same exact time. Yesterday I went out and bought a thermometer to keep at the store because I was convinced I had a ridiculously high, burning, scorching fever. I measured up at 97.9 degrees. Hypochondria much? OH speaking of hypochondria, I'm convinced I have Epstein Barr. My dad was diagnosed with it a week or two ago, and apparently it has a 1-2 month incubation period. He caught it somewhere around Miami and I've shared drinks with him since he's been home. While googling Epstein Barr I stumbled across HCMV which now I am also convinced I have. This is why I don't ever go to WebMD. Ever. Another thing I will never do again is watch Monsters Inside Me on Animal Planet. I made that mistake yesterday. I am now terrified of somehow getting brain-embedding parasites.
Back to today. I've seen a total of like 4 people at work today, which is good because I've gotten a lot done, bad because it means we're not making money. Brian and I also got into a fight (or two, or three) about work. I hate fighting, let alone fighting at work (and over work). It is NOT easy to work with the person you love/live with. We do ok with it but sometimes we can't help but stop just short of punching one another other in the face. We're good now but an hour ago? Wow. If anyone would have walked in they would have ran for cover. Gotta love the Italian/Irish tempers!
Hopefully tonight will be better. Yankees/Red Sox game tonight so we'll probably go somewhere to watch. Or I'll feel like death and hangout by myself on the couch. We'll see.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Thomas Hawk's $2 Portraits
While searching for cute pictures of piggies on Flickr (I know, I know...) I came across this photographer Thomas Hawk. His photographs are very good, but I was especially inspired by a series he calls, "$2 Portraits." When people approach him asking for money, he offers them $2 in exchange for their photograph.
He says, "In part I'm undertaking this project because I realize that I've been avoiding people asking me for money. My biggest motivation behind this project however is simply that I think human interaction is a good thing. I'm not doing this to exploit homeless people or show how hard and bad life can be. I'm doing this because I want to celebrate other human beings as human beings and I think that this commercial transaction gives us an opportunity to engage and interact on a more human level... and I also think that I can take a pretty decent portrait."
I think it's a great idea, plus I love reading all their interesting life stories. Here are a few of my favorites:
He says, "In part I'm undertaking this project because I realize that I've been avoiding people asking me for money. My biggest motivation behind this project however is simply that I think human interaction is a good thing. I'm not doing this to exploit homeless people or show how hard and bad life can be. I'm doing this because I want to celebrate other human beings as human beings and I think that this commercial transaction gives us an opportunity to engage and interact on a more human level... and I also think that I can take a pretty decent portrait."
I think it's a great idea, plus I love reading all their interesting life stories. Here are a few of my favorites:
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