My life is turning into a series of "moments"

I'm having a moment. When am I NOT having a moment, lately?

I'm not living right and there isn't enough time in a day and there aren't enough days to fix everything that is broken. I'm trying, though, and at least I still know what "right" is. That amounts to something right? No, this is the real world and that amounts to absolutely nothing.

Sometimes I still feel like I'm not ready for this. Not often, but definitely right now.

I can't even handle life, and Christmas is coming (with the need to buy gifts and cook food and organize family) and then vacation (thank fucking god)...I just need to get through these next 7 days, do them right, and then it will be the beach, and then the New Year when I can fix everything, or repeat the same mistakes I made this year. We'll see.

8 Years.

8 years ago today, on December 5th, 2001, Brian asked me to be his girlfriend. Which sounds insane as I write this, because at this point in life I am much more than just his "girlfriend." I think the best way to document our relationship for everyone to see (and thoroughly embarrass ourselves by showcasing our awkward phases, such as straight-edge-hardcore and bad-dye-job-Brooklyn) is through pictures!

2001, in Florida at Gainesville Fest (more specifically, Steak N Shake)

2002, at my parents' house on his 19th birthday

2003, at my house, after acquiring a test press of our favorite record

2003, at the Jersey shore

2004, also at the Jersey shore

2005, on Broadway downtown after our 4th anniversary

2006, in Little Italy

2006, at Alessandra's New Years Eve Sweet 16

2007, Easter brunch (with my grandpa)

2007, Halloween in NYC (I'm obviously a bee, Brian's obviously himself)

2008, in San Diego

2008, in Staniel Cay, Bahamas

2009, in our kitchen

...& many more to come!